I'm sure the title of my blog makes very little sense outside of any context, so I'll give this my best shot. The title is a reference to a sensation a lot of writers feel, especially those who struggle to turn writing into a routine practice without becoming discouraged. Finding the words to come even remotely close to capturing the concepts floundering around in our heads is stressful. Sometimes, it's easiest to convince yourself that the actual act of writing will ruin any ideas, no matter how great or profound they might be. Conjuring the gall to convince yourself that your time at the keyboard/notepad/napkin/passed-out-friend's-forehead and sling out words is the uphill struggle.
As for the descent part? Well, have you ever sweated bullets over text you rewrote five billion times and still didn't send it? Have you ever scribbled some words of wisdom on the bathroom stall walls and suddenly become embarrassed because you just realized all you wrote was "suck it"? That's anxiety, and for most of us writers it's an all too familiar scourge of our existence. That's the descent part. As you push yourself to put words to paper, that nagging anxiety kicks in with questions like "Are you sure that's the direction you wanna take?", "Are you sure that's how you wanna describe that object", or "Are you sure you don't wanna quit and sell your body to science instead?".
It's a two fronted war, but my hope is that this blog helps me figure these things out as well as help anyone else.
As for the descent part? Well, have you ever sweated bullets over text you rewrote five billion times and still didn't send it? Have you ever scribbled some words of wisdom on the bathroom stall walls and suddenly become embarrassed because you just realized all you wrote was "suck it"? That's anxiety, and for most of us writers it's an all too familiar scourge of our existence. That's the descent part. As you push yourself to put words to paper, that nagging anxiety kicks in with questions like "Are you sure that's the direction you wanna take?", "Are you sure that's how you wanna describe that object", or "Are you sure you don't wanna quit and sell your body to science instead?".
It's a two fronted war, but my hope is that this blog helps me figure these things out as well as help anyone else.
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